Starting Again (Hooray!)

I think perhaps I overdid it.

I knew, and was warned going into this that there would be ups and downs, and times when I was completely disillusioned with the whole idea of a psychic realm. I didn’t expect though, that my period of disillusionment would be so complete, and that I would completely disengage with the process. I had expected that I would still provide updates during this time, even if it was just to write about how shit it all was.

The truth is, I stopped blogging (obviously), and then I stopped checking the psychic forums that I was previously checking a couple of times a day. Then I stopped checking my email, because I actually didn’t want to know if someone had emailed me, because then I would have to respond. I’d even thought about just giving it all up (the blog, I should specify!).

I wondered if I was destined to have a generic life after all, of living within the parameters of everyday life on Earth and worrying only about what type of boots I would buy for winter (this sounds terribly
egotistical and superior, I know. But hey, in the interests of being honest...).

Then late last week I started to think about it all again. I very tentatively checked my email, which had been inundated by junk mail, and found an email from a fellow forum-user asking if I wanted to be their Tarot buddy, to share learning experiences and ideas with each other. When I logged onto the forum to reply to her, I was surprised to feel almost relieved to be back.

Then, just now, John Edwards appeared as a guest speaker on the 7pm Project television show and reignited my fascination in the ‘other side’.

And so here I am again. My goal this week is to catch up to speed on the Tarot training course on the weekend, and then report back here. This time when I say I’ll be back, I actually will be!

If you have any comments about this post, I encourage you to leave a comment below. If you are not comfortable posting publicly, you can alternatively email me on psychic.journal@gmail.com. Have a great day!